Monday, January 14, 2013

An Obstacle, A Total Disaster (Reflection)



    I don't possess a high quality voice but I wanna sing this just to ease the disappointments, failures and burdens of mine. RAINBOW by SOUTH BORDER.
"Oohhh... Can't you see? No matter what happens, life goes on and on. So baby, just SMILE. Even if there is rain now, everything will be alright. For as long as the world spins there will be nights and days. THERE'S A RAINBOW ALWAYS AFTER THE RAIN."
     I should have reached my goals. I should have fulfilled what I had promised to myself. I should had remove myself from the prison of disgusting expectations.
    Third grading period was undeniably having the most hectic schedule among the three gradings we had. It was fully loaded with activities especially those which are held outside the campus. But you know what? I still love ICT IV most importantly our topic about Microsoft Front Page. That was such a cool application! It is my first time to try and see how it works. One word to describe it? AMAZING. The passion of mine about computers, information and communications, web designs really drive me to take up BSIT in the near future.
     So far, no problem had occurred yet except a misunderstanding about the Web Page Design Making with some friends. But PAST IS PAST. I don't want to talk about it anymore because it will just hurt me. Regarding to our other subjects? I think the major obstacle to my success is the Thesis. This third grading, I know I will fail because of this. I lose the all the concentration thinking of our titles. and everything about my other subjects. I am not satisfied with my ICT score same through with all my other subjects. I should have got higher if not because of that thesis! Why life is so hard like this?
     I really don't have anything to address those problems. Third grading is over. I'll just hope for the best. We can't bring back time. What I can do now is just to pray and lift up my hands to God for he'll show me the way. Everything is a mess, a total disaster, and I can't do anything otherwise. I'll just accept that my goal will remain unreachable. *sad face*
     Moving on, I want more positive outlooks in life. Back off bad vibes! I will be more than happy if ever I can make it this third grading but if not, maybe fourth grading may do. Maybe my best wasn't enough for now. But until the last time, the last quarter, I'll fight for the thing I am fighting for since second year. GO CLAIRE! I trust myself.

                   

#IamSTRONG#IcanMakeIt#NeverGiveUp#Believe

Monday, January 7, 2013

New Year, New Me

     I keep on having a flashback about my 2012 memories. The way I laugh, I deal to life's challenges, I hang out with my friends, the blessings I received, the conversation I had with the important persons in my life and so on... I can't help to miss all those stuffs. Whenever good memories pop up in my mind, I smile. And when the bad ones hit me, I just frown and try not to look back.
     *SIGH* Another year was again concluded. What I am being thankful to is the end of the world which hadn't took place. Now, I had the chance to live my dreams still and make my plans bit into reality. This is a new year. A year to replenish and correct the mistakes of yesterday.


     As part of the new wave, of course, the number one in the list would be all about NEW YEAR'S RESOLUTIONS. Every person has his own list of it and has his own strategy on accomplishing it. But some don't mind because they say, "It's just a waste of time. This is me and I can't change anything about it. Besides, even though I make so many long lists, I might not do it." Me? Everything's just fine and simple. This year, I am going to be a good daughter and sister. I'll surrender my phone to my mother and I'll minimize to log on to my Social Networking Sites. I'll try to be a better classmate. I knew some are irritated with my attitude. My friends are always telling me, "Don't be too serious in life, give yourself a break. Enjoy being in the last day of our lives." So I'll follow their suggestions.
     Behind all these things, all I want is a CHANGE. I've been so careless about myself especially about my studies for the pass few months. I am so lazy. It's like I have no energy in everything I do. I regret it for possessing some bad habits and attitudes.
     So far, I am doing good this first month. I wish this will continue. But I don't know how will I make things right regarding with all our Math-related subject. Even though how hard I try, I can't.
     The best thing that ever happened this start of the year? Well, I had a dream. A very wonderful thing that may happen to me in the real world. I dreamed of God with an angel and me. The three of us were in heaven. Aye! But there's only a blurred image of God I can see. What is clear is that He is talking to me. But I just remembered a phrase out of the many sentences He uttered. I forgot about the story, how was I got there. The only thing I had in my mind is the phrase... "MAKE A DREAM AND BELIEVE." That was a crystal clear statement from God.
     What does that mean? Is something good gonna happen this 2013 to me? I HOPE SO.
      Welcome 2013! Don't just be good to me! Shower more blessings and lifetime success! :)